All Bottled Up

Hey all! Sorry for not updating for awhile, but this is just to tell you that I will update tonight when I get home! I’ve got lots of stuffz to tell you all! So, that’s all for now. Laterz!

[EDIT: July 01, 2008, 7:25 PM]

Okay, so I’ve got some news to share with you all. First off, I’m joining the Army. =) I’ve always wanted to be in the Army, and I found a computer field I can go into while I’m there, and it’s just a dream come true! I’m so excited. I’m joining sometime next week, but I won’t go off to basic training until after I graduate, or at least that’s what I’m going to try to plan for.

Second, I’ve got me a new boyfriend. It’s not one that I’ve talked about, this just sort of happened out of the blue, but I’m not complaining. I’m so happy with this guy. He’s the first guy I’ve actually liked for his personality and how he treats me, instead of just his looks. I know, looks shouldn’t matter, but sometimes it’s helps, ya know? But really, I’m so happy with him. I actually just go back from hanging out with him. We went to both the parks in my town, and hung out, and it was fun. Tomorrow, we are going to hang out at his house. I can’t wait. It’s so funny, because he gave me his class ring, but my fingers are so small that it just slides right off. I put some yarn type fabric around it, and it kind of holds it on better. I still have to watch myself though, so it doesn’t come off. I would die if I lost his ring.

Not much else has been going on. I’ve been swimming a lot, and I’ve got a pretty nice tan. It makes me happy. lol Also I went to the movies Friday, and we saw The Love Guru. It was so freaking hilarious. I loved it. My friends (which are all guys) want to go to the movies this Friday, but it’s the 4th of July, and I want to watch the fireworks at the park. So, I don’t know what I’m going to be doing. My boyfriend told me that we could go to the early show, and he would take me to watch the fireworks afterwards. I also have a Six Flags season pass, but I don’t have any friends to go with me. I want to go this Sunday, and of course, my boyfriend has to work..and so I don’t have anyone to go with. It sucks, because my season pass has pretty much just been a waste of money. I only spent $45 on it though, instead of like $70 from the site, but still. I’ve wanted to go all summer, and I haven’t been able to. I don’t want to go alone, but OMG it’s about ready to kill me if I don’t go.

Anyways, I hope everyone is doing well. Sorry for taking such a long time to update. I will hopefully get all my TCG’s updated as well. Later everyone!

Much love!

[EDIT: July 04, 2008]

The TCG’s will be updated sometime next week due to this weekend being the 4th of July, and I’m extremely busy! Sorry! <3

So, yesterday, I went to the movies, with a friend, and we watched The Happening. It was alright, he didn’t like it, but I thought it was good.

Also went to the river Wednesday last week. I only got a little sunburnt on my shoulders, but it’s pretty much gone now. I had fun. I didn’t have a swimming suit then, but I got one today! I was so happy. It’s green, and has some yellow. I’ll have to take pictures of it, so you all can see.

I’ve been a little upset lately. I actually don’t know why…it’s kind of weird. There’s a few things bothering me, but I can’t seem to figure out what is really bothering me.

First off, I have a guy friend, and we hang out a lot. He likes me, but I don’t like him that way, and everyone, and I mean everyone, is always asking me if I’m going out with him, and stuff like that, and I’m not, and it’s getting kind of annoying. I don’t get why I can’t hang out with a guy and him not be my boyfriend?

Second, I’ve been having a lot of bad memories from my past coming up, and it is taking everything I’ve got to control them. Everything I seem to do, brings back memories, and I don’t know how to try to stop it.

Third, I like this guy, where I’m working, but I don’t know if he likes me. One of my friends told me, that he thinks I hate him because I never talk to him, but when I do try to talk to him, sometimes he just looks at me like I’m stupid and it kind of makes me feel stupid. lol. I actually talked to him last night, when I was at Country Mart (the place of work), and we hid the keys to my friends vehicle, and I had him laughing. But, I still don’t know. I’m not sure, but from rumors, he just got over a break-up, and I didn’t even know he had a girlfriend. I kind of thought he did, but I didn’t know for sure, that was a rumor I had heard too. I really want to ask him to hang out with me and friends sometime, but I’m afraid he might either take it the wrong way, because I don’t want to make him think I’m just trying to come onto him, or he might just refuse to go, even though my friend has told me that he wants to hang out sometime, not with just me alone, but like with a group. I don’t know. I’m so confused on it. I really wish I could just have a conversation with him alone, because I have so many things I want to ask him, that my friend has told me. But I’m afraid too. Bah!

Lastly, the too familiar family problem, money issues. Yes, we’ve all had them, and for me, it just seems like it’s never going to go away. My dad has barely worked at all for almost a year, and we’re living off my mom’s $300 a week. My mom works at Country Mart, and I go into work with her, and I get paid, but still, it’s just not enough. The only payment we never have money to make is the house payment, and that’s because my mom doesn’t make enough to pay it. I had not having money. It’s so stressful and my parents haven’t been very happy lately, and it’s just so hard to deal with.

Alright, I’m done venting off some of my problems. I’m not sure it’s helped, but my headache seems to have gone away. I guess that’s a start. I hope everyone is doing well. Much love to you all.

I added a photography page. I haven’t gotten all the pictures up that I want, but you can check out the ones that are added. Not much else has happened here. I’ve been a little busy. It all just seems to be happening.

As you can see; I’ve added some Trading Card Games, and Fanlistings. I’m trying to think of more stuff to add, but I don’t know what.

If you join any of the TCG’s please say I (Barbara) referred you, please. I’m going to add more fanlistings, just randomly, not any particular time.

Once my Graphic Design teacher puts the pictures of my artwork up online, I will add a page for that as well, so you can see some of my graphics. I’m also thinking of adding pictures of my pets, and other random pictures that I like, and I think you all will like as well. Please tell me if you like this idea. Also if you have any ideas you would like to see on here.

I’m going to try making a layout, but I’m not promising anything, because I get an idea and then I lose inspiration.

I’m thinking of using my blog posts as discussions, because I like to hear everyone’s opinions on things. So, that may be coming up too.

These are just random ideas I’ve come up with, so I don’t count on anything, unless I post about it being up.

Hope all are doing well. I’ll update again soon. <3

I really have lost my interest in blogging. It sucks. I do want to do something with my site, not just let it die. I still want to do blogging, but just not as much as I should. I am looking for new ideas on what to do with my site. I really like Online Trading Card Games. I might try to make my site into the host of the ones I join, but I haven’t decided yet. I’ve also been looking for a job, so if I get one, I won’t have as much time to goof off on the internet. It’s summer though, and until I get a job, I’ll be on here more. Hopefully, that is. I’m sorry to all my blog buddies. I hope you will continue to visit my site as I try to figure out what to do with it.

So as of right now, I’m officially putting my site Under Construction. Everything will still be up, but you will be seeing changes as the days go by and I’m sorry if you click something and it doesn’t work.

I joined [x]PuzzleMANIA and [x]Horcrux.

[EDIT: Tuesday, June 03, 2008] Joined [x]Time Turner yesterday, and [x]Hogwarts today. [/EDIT]